by Lilac Shadows

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RECORDED march 21-22 in durham, nc
ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY lilac shadows

SAM LOGAN vocals, guitars
NATHAN PRICE guitars, keyboards
BRIAN CORUM bass, backing vocals
REED BENJAMIN drums, keyboards

DAVID MUELLER saxophone on “Alive in Dying History”

THANKS to Nick Petersen, The Scrap Exchange, the Randall Commander II series, Modelo Especial, WKNC, WXDU, DiggUp Tapes, David Mueller, Will Goodyear, John Wollaber, Brad Morton, Palomino Records, Craigslist, Lisa Sorg, all of the wonderful bands we call friends, and listeners like you.

*except track 6 — recorded and mixed by lilac shadows

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released February 24, 2015



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Lilac Shadows Durham, North Carolina


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Track Name: Black Lodge
Seek what you cannot find
What lingers in your mind
Seek what you cannot know
What you could not let go

It’s knowing
It knows

Shake what you cannot hide
Release it and let die
And break what you cannot hold
Release it and let go

Tonight, we’ll ride
Tonight, we’ll step inside
I will take you there
I will take you there
Track Name: Alive In Dying History
Walking through tainted memories
Alive in dying history
Just like when I was 19
I saw my future turn from me
So I fled the scene
I don’t look back, but the break was clean

Awake in distant feelings
Asleep through explained meanings
The sound is ringing around me
But I covered up my eyes to see
This city breathes
I still lose sleep
I still lose sleep

Something’s missing, something hidden
I turn toward you, but I could not listen
A fading story, that echoes for me
A voice is calling to whisper softly that
you’re alone tonight

Someone’s turning
Someone’s turning
Was my future not worth learning?
Track Name: Blue Nile
Wake to the sound
That’s filling the air
Someone is singing
Something is there
To trigger those thoughts
You think of that smile
You walk to the window,
You’re hoping you’ll find
Some truth that bends this lie:

What you see is not there
What you feel is not fair
What you’re hearing is wrong
What you have is not gone

Sharpen your teeth
For what is in store
You taste the restraint
As you ask her for more
You wait for her call
You wait for her song
These comforts collect
As you’re drifting along
Into blue beyond and on
Track Name: Fly In The Ointment
I want mine
All the time
And you play along ‘cause you could
But have you thought about if you should

Speak your mind
And I’ll change mine
Something cold, something true, something mean
I’ll regret, you’ll forget, we’ll stay clean

But you can you see this can’t be what we need
It’s lust, it’s hate, it’s nothing in between

In between the silence and the dark is a scream
The season’s in, and I would gladly play your prey again
Track Name: Spinning
I was turning, I was falling to you
Caught in this trap
That was intended for two
I was looking, I was looking for you
In our midnight
In your blackening cocoon
Which you were spinning for two

So if we fall asleep will you wake with me?
If I turn around will I shake this tender ground
From all our spinning?

If you are gone, then I’m just as happy
Same as I was before you had said to me
That you had needed someone
Track Name: MORE
Waiting your turn to fight in the war
You wade through the pain
While you pray for the cure
When all of the signs warn you what you walk towards
Just swallow your pill
And think of it no more

Asleep in her arms you forget what’s in store
You’re safe from that stage
Where they’ll ask you for more
You’re closer to death, but as brave and as pure
And your body will shake
But your heart will want more

Feel their faces getting redder than before
Left with nothing just an echo on the floor
Waiting up to find what nightmares are in store
Waking up to find them only wanting more
They wanted more
They wanted more